Pinnacle

...If only it were that simple. Nobody knows what horrors I have saved the world from because people can't never see what never happened. All evils flow from independence, and independence is your choice. If I were to simply revoke all the choices of independence, the world as you know it would cease to exist and love would have no meaning.
This world is not a playground where I keep all my children free from evil.
Evil is the chaos of this age that you brought to me but it will not have the final say. Now it touches everyone that I love, those who follow me and those who won't.
If I take away the consequences on people's choices, I destroy the possibility of love. Love that is forced is no love at all.

Let me tell you one of the reasons why this won't make sense to you. It's because you have such a small view of what it means to be human. You and this Creation are incredible, wether you understand that or not. You are wonderful beyond imagination. Just because you make horrendous and destructive choices does not mean you deserve less respect for what you inherently are - the pinnacle of my Creation and the center of my affection.

Also, don't forget that in the midst of all your pain and heartache, you are surrounded by beauty, the wonder of Creation, art, your music and culture, the sounds of laughter and love, of whispered hopes and celebrations, of new life and transformation, of reconciliation and forgiveness. These are also the results of your choices and every choice matters, even the hidden ones.
So who's choices should we countermand?
Perhaps I should have never created?
Perhaps, Adam should have stopped before he chose independence?
You demand your independence, but then complain that I actually love you enough that I give it to you?
My purposes are not for my comfort, or yours. My purposes are always and only and expression of love. I purpose to work life out of death, to bring freedom out of brokeness and turn darkness into light.
What you see as chaos, I see as fractal.
All things must unfold, even though it puts all those I love in the midst of a world of horrible tragedies - even the one closest to me.

Story

I thought my testimony was less then holy,
I thought I was less blessed then my homies,
just confessing only
the big sins, I thought that was a badge of honor,
I thought that I had to have a story that was packed with drama,
But I aint ever been shot, no big crimes,
never smoked weed, never drank, I never did time, (no)
I grew up with both parents both cheering me on, teaching me basic things like no swearing (no swearing son),

It’s so apparent I came up in the church,
socially this is where I gave my worth,
learned to pray and assert
my self for God displaying its worth,
upon living without playing in the earth,
just the average kid,
you know the type that like to play in the dirt,
came home with dirt stains on my shirt,
reciting the same old verse,
at the table no games no hurts,
And I knew I was called before the day of my birth,
And its like that...

I aint got no horror story
God kept me in my youth I give him all the glory
I thought my story didn’t flow,
But now I know
the blood of the lamb has saved my soul
and that’s my testimony.

I aint no gangster (no) I aint tough cause of rap,
never been cuffed and stuffed in the back of a patty-wagon,
I aint never cuss in my raps,
I started gospel most aint accustom to that,

Let me get back,
when I was young I used to think I was corny,
Cause I aint grow up in the projects drinking a 40,
And I aint never had no thug dude sneaking upon me,
And every buddy had the name brand sneakers before me,
And it made me really mad
but as I bugged my mom and pops taught me never to chase silly fads,
they told me focus and bought me note books, I really had
brilliant parents they introduced me to Billy Graham

See I aint got no horror story
God kept me as a buck I give him all the glory,
In high school all the pretty girls ignored me called me church boy,
I wasn’t bothered normally though,
Sometimes I would hate living the life of a saint,
They saw the Christian boy and light right from the gate,
thought I would preach so they tried to escape
but I guess that’s just the price of pronouncing your faith,
and its like that...

I aint got no horror story
God kept me in my youth I give him all the glory
I thought my story didn’t flow,
But now I know the blood of the lamb has saved my soul
and that’s my testimony.

Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying I’m prefect,
Matter fact I took thoughts and conveyed about cursing,
I was saving my pain it was worse then it should have been
man I was ashamed just to say I’m a virgin,
plus I was too afraid to admit I was a Christian,
I spent most of those days trying to prove I was hip,
plus trying to prove I was cool, trying to move like a pimp,
My testimony wasn’t cool enough yet,
Then I came to my senses I put my brain to the scriptures,
Thought of how Christ was blameless to sinners,
He didn’t grow up on the corner fornicating with sisters,
A good Jew grew in favor of wisdom,
That gave me relief,
rearranged my belief
no longer thinking what I’m saying is weak,
I aint never been sprayed in the street
but saved by his grace plus raised to my feet,
And its like that,

I aint got no horror story
God kept me in my youth I give him all the glory
I thought my story didn’t flow,
But now I know the blood of the lamb has saved my soul
and that’s my testimony.